Love???

I have very good friends, they are also a couple, and i love hanging out with them... But, from time to time, i feel strange around them, because i feel like hindering them to showing their love. They show their love, and i'm not against them, but the opposite, i'm happy to see them together, but still i find that something is missing in my life. Not a material thing, but love, someone to care for me. Someone to hug, to kiss, someone to share my life. I found myself wanting to have a boyfriend, but it's so hard to find love. Many friends tell me that love is not something to find, but rather something that comes when you are not looking.

There are many sayings: 'God will provide', 'God know why he does things' 'God said, help yourself and i'll help you', 'All in due time'. And so many others, and this confuses me... Everything tells me to try to find love, and also tells me not to. Who should i believe? The answer is not clear yet, but i'll try to keep moving on and live my life the way i have been doing. From time to time, love is a priority to me, but most of the time, it isn't, i find myself happy to be alive, to have family, friends, school, health and so much more. Love can wait a bit.

Cya, H&K